Monday, September 21, 2009{ 9:02 PM } I am not emo.
Ask me how long have I not blogged.
Partly accomplished, partly disappointed. Yet and again I tell myself to study hard. Things work well for the first half, till I take my break and lose my momentum. I swear I had never study so hard in my life (and it's still not the peak yet), but hey, who truly knows how demoralising it must have felt to not see it pay back?
Lots have/had changed and true enough. I became more serious in academic work due to this and that factors. I put in more effort to copy notes and highlight keypoints. I spend my Sundays mugging away. I try to sleep early after completing my fair share of work.
But it isn't working.
Ah yeah our promo exam is last to come, there or so. Seems far away, but before we know it, we'll be sitting in our respective venues panicking. Hey let's see, we're left with, erm, 4 days for each subject on average??
Things ain't working out by the way. So much and so much have been happening. I mean first degree of course. Here, someone has relationship problems. There, someone is worrying about exams (aye who don't). Next, someone just doesn't understand.
Don't ask me how I am, because I've said what I want to. Don't ask me whether I am okay or not, because I am not. Don't tell me you'll be here, because that wouldn't help much. Don't tell me to cheer up, because things will not solve with just two words. Don't tell me to jiayou, because I am already doing it (and getting tired of it). Right now I probably need some time with myself.
And when I feel helpless, my gastric acts up again. Good job man.
"If you don't act as if you're happy, when will you ever be?" I need my goodluck carebear.